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haha, i've only just realised how tb/fob-like i am. blame the asians & their gatsby. you've got to love it though, gatsby ftw. i'll probably get the other colors when i get to go back to china.

hmm, nothing really interesting atm. school tommorrow though. urgh. how gay. =_=


currently listening to; utada hikaru & ayumi hamasaki. both are, j-pop/j-rn'b artists.
& The Gazette & Alice Nine, visual kei/j-rock bands.
i'm hoping they'll be releasing new albums soon. ^^
oh oh, & also..
mister jay chou. <3

"we'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's for nothing at all."- secret valentine, we the kings

yes, i am kind of obsessed with We The Kings, atm. their music is amaaaazing, original lyrics & eccentric instrumentals. You Me At Six is pree good too. (:

School has been rather shitee, as per usual. mostly due to a thick headed, demon worshipping, racist & pathetic person (or people). i don't give a shit anymore, just let it go. because right now you're really asking to die. i don't care if you call me an asian, cause that's what i am, about time you figured it out, maybe YOU should open your eyes.

also didn't have to go to tutoring today. :D
but i'm not going out on saturday either, maybe next week? (:

x

ayemee

take a walk in my shoes, i bet you couldn't walk a mile.

not a happy day. i hope you & your friends die in the most gruesome, slowest & most excruciatingly painful way. because you deserve it. yes, you harbored all this hatred & misery. don't go blaming it on someone else. i'm sick of your lies, assumptions & deception. when they see through your lies, you'll be gone, because that's all you're depending on.


still listening to gd's; heartbreaker. i know, i know. it's olddddd. but it's still good. also loving big bang's; haru haru.

also going to towers on saturday with wendy. :D

x

ayemee

sigh. summer again. summer meaning; looong freaking hot days, getting even more tanned, swimming & the holidays. i could give you a list of 37457598494 negative things about summer, but i won't. cause it'll bore you. generally i'm a winter person. i love the cold, snuggling up in a blanket, long nights, scarves & the cold breeze. living in australia kinda sucks when you love winter. too bad. (:

recent outtings have been ruined, cause of people being grounded & busy. but i'm finally seeing new moon on sunday. hopefully we won't be going in the sweltering heat. ):

mkayss, so goals, ambitions, dream & whatever this summer;

1. trying not to get a tan! this one will probably be difficult. :/
2. trying to get out of the house as much as possible.
3. get fitt! grr i hate working out, push ups & sit ups are no fun, but they are kind of working.

& that's about it i guess. (:

x

ayemee

it's funny how fast things change. one day, you think your life is happy & secure, another day it seems like everything has fallen apart. you loose your friends, your reputation, your trust & you loose your temper. nothing ever stays the same. & it sucks. i guess the most difficult part of it is moving on. it's hard to let go of what you had.
it's funny though. despite the loses, i don't regret a thing. i'm damn glad that i let go of a false friendship, & i'm happy i'm not stumbling around in the dark.
i don't care about the past anymore.
fuck you!

x

ayemee

despite the small amount of rain, it's still freaaaaking hot.
the fan isn't really helping me cool down either. sigh.
school was rather boring today, but at lunch we managed to get into the music rooms & the air con cooled us down for an hour. :D but then we had to face the freaking hot heat again. =_=
still disliking school acutely, not a positive environment at all . people need to caaalm down & stop provoking others.cause, simply it's the smartest thing to do. or they could continue provoking them & not look around the corner and.. BAM, they deaaad.

it seems like i've also rediscovered my long lasting love for v-kei band; alice nine. <3

x

ayemee

'cause if you jump
i will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
'cause i would die for you
on skyway avenue

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dumb prick. (:

anywaaaays,

sam; if you're still reading this i suppose you've signed out of your blogspot account & still intend to read my blogs, yes?
tbh, i don't care.
but that doesn't mean you have to go out of your way to be a damn dog to me in class.
getting involved in this makes you no better than the rest of them.
you think you've got more people on your side?
wrong.
you can go die with the rest of them.

on a happier note;

it's been pree good these past few days.
& peaceful too.
kind of.
but okay. (:

x

ayemee

count your blessings, 'cause i'm counting every lie,
count your blessings, 'cause i'm counting every lie,
counting every lie !

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blahblahblah.
whatever, i get the fucking picture, alrighty?
just gtfo, kthx?
you honestly have no idea.


anyways;

rather uneventful.
going to see new moon soon, i don't exactly want to see it, cause of the Twitards,
but i haven't been out in abit. so i might as well go. (:

urghhhh,
also have to research some icky diseases for science. =_=

x

ayemee

you fucked it up. don't you understand?

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consequence.
i've been thinking a hell of alot today.
in about 3 weeks, my life has been turned upside down.
a small disagreement could become alot more.
you have no idea. you've caused a huge fucking problem.
i thought it was over. apparently not.
i didn't want to get anyone else involved, but it seems like i have no choice.
this was our fight. not anyone elses.
they don't understand what they're fighting for.
why did you even drag them into this?
hell's going to break loose.
& it'll be all your fault.

x

ayemee

your lieslieslies. they don't fool me.

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i don't understand people, they are completely confusing.
i hate when people play mind games & try to manipulate me. don't try it.
don't try to get someone to do your dirty work, because i will find out about it. & i'll hate you for it, trust me.
mark my words.
i think i've almost completely lost my trust in people, except for a selected few.
& it hurts.
btw, this is directed at several people, not one or two.

x

ayemee

where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness

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fear is a terrible thing. it has the ability to stop you from achieving your dreams. it can stop you from doing anything.
but sometimes you just have to ignore it.
ignore the voices in your head, warning you to not go further.
& sometimes you just have to deal with the consequences.
no matter how bad they are, you'll eventually have to face the truth.
& truth hurts. truth can cut deep.
you can deceive yourself all you want, but the truth will always be there.

don't ever back down

x
ayemee

i wish i had never let you in, i wish i'd never let you go under my skin.

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hurt.
hating.
two words that sum up my feelings right now.
i want to fucking murder the person that made me feel that way.
& she's reading this right now.
isn't she just so smart?
fucking hell.
GTFO plzkthxbai
it's not control, it's common sense & what's right.
& don't fucking use people!
gosh.
dogdogdog.
cow.
(:

x
ayemee

yumyum. ;D
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eh. nothing muchies.
freaking hot weatherrrr~
wants to go swimming, but silly mother is not home to take me. >.<

i have obsessions with these things/people atm-

* skittlesss` <3

* G DRAGON.
oh hot damn yes. ;D

* Ayumi Hamasaki & Utada Hikaru.
obsessed.. in a non-lesbian way. i swear it. amazing music, j-pop & rn'b ftw!



also;

NEW Bring Me The Horizon album OUTTT! :D :D :D
we meet again, mister oliver sykesss. <3
Suicide Season Cut Up. (:
I have yet to listen to that amazing shiz. BUT i will get it. (:

x

ayemee

sometimes- life just SUCKS. <3
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boredboredbored.
attempting to plan outings with friends, but kind of failing. =_=
strict asian parents are no fun~ ):

nothing interesting in particular. -sigh-
i'm so sick of this school-
it's boringboringboring, the people are racist dogs & couldn't be nice to save their lives.
..
oh course, there are exceptions to this. (:
thank god~!
oh gee. i'm boreddd.

hmm.. positive-
going to tiff's house on thursdaay.
even if it's for drama/english thing.
:D

x

ayemee

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